2.17.2008

years of ambiguity.

went to the mall yesterday for the first time in a while. on a saturday in february--perhaps a strange idea. i've never felt so OLD! seeing all these teeny boppers running around with their shopping bags. i totally did that. i remember asking associates at american eagle if i could just have a shopping bag to carry around. so i would look cool. heaven help all those raising teenage girls.


went into vans and had my eye on a 16-year-old kid trying on high tops. i whispered to meredith, i wish i was young again. just so i could feel justified in thinking that little child was cute.

went to pretzel time (can i go to the mall without going to pretzel time? no. maybe i'm not so old after all) and the average age of workers was about 3 years old. they were so cute and little. i asked for pretzel sticks and they rolled their eyes: 'what are pretzel sticks?' oh. they must not have those anymore. they're called pretzel bites now. oh of course. i defied everything within me and started on a back in my day speech.

speaking of old--going home in five days to say farewell to chad. i cannot wait to see my friends. they're all going on missions within the next few months.

sean - currently in california.
jordan - currently in canada.
chad - canada in february.
matt - spain in april.
ren - spain in june.
trevor - chile in june.
rob - brazil in june.

how old am i? not spending the next 2 years living a foreign life. but not running around at 'the mall' giggling and crowing all the while.

02.21.08 post script: i found a gray hair today.

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