here's to change.

my roommate Lene is so great. I haven't told you much about my roommates have I? well, for one, Lene (pronounced Lana) is from Norway. and she is teaching me Norwegian. I love it. 3 years of Spanish and I got nada. well, un poco. but Norweigan is good to me. Lene has been having what I would call a hard time focusing on school. this morning, she told me about her 8:00 am class every day next semester. I thought wow. and then, rudely slash jokingly, I said "you're never gonna go." how faithless of me. I believe in her to the core, but I'm sorry I said such a thing. of course we are so close and she is so great that she replied, "what? you don't have faith in me? I am going to change!" she said.

she is going to change and I believe it. chatting online with her mum in Norwegia (as we like to call it), her mom urged her to focus more on her schoolwork. she said, mom I know. she showed me her last thought "obama + me = change :) " I loved that. it reminded me of marta's obama fiasco--I am grateful for her insightful thoughts on change. I'm all for change. all for it. I want to change more than anything.

it seems like everyone is getting married. I don't know why, when I think about it, I can't count a significant-enough-number of people that I know--but it just seems like marriage is in the air. everyone is gettin' hitched.

I'm not. I don't know what I'm doing. sometimes at the end of the day I have to ask where did today go? part of my ongoing change is changing my priorities. where I spend my time reflects what is important to me. first: Jesus Christ. second: the people I love. third: the people I want to love. fourth: community. fifth: school. if only my time reflected so.



I can't decide what to do. I love my job. being a TA in American Heritage is so rewarding. I love teaching, I love the material, and I love the community of my students, fellow TA's, program directors, and professors. the whole thing means the world to me--and it has definitely received a large bulk of my time this semester. I love it.

I want to feel about my major the way I feel about my job. I currently have 2 majors: Print-Journalism and American Studies. hopefully, by the end of this whole college thing, I will have the skills to communicate well, and still have something worth saying. background is key.

so here's to change and all that it has in store for me: new major, new responsibility, new budget (saving up for abroad!), new financial shout-out (thanks to BYU Scholarships having what they called an 'unanticipated budget surplus'), new relationships, new classes next semester, new president 2009, new priorities, new time-expenditure, and a new me.